So I have a pulmonary doctors appointment today (One of those glorious side effects of being obese) I have sleep apnea.
I work from home so typically I don't have to put on what I call real clothes. I simply just throw on what i call knock-abouts because no one will see me or for that matter smell me (I know super sad ;o) Well today being that I have to go out into the real world means that I have to put on real world clothes. Can I just say I am already exhausted? This is completely ridiculous!!! Who gets tired from getting dressed!!! The more and more I come to these realizations the more madder I get at myself and the fat that now riddles my body.
I think as a result of it all I have begin to hate myself because I have allowed myself to get to this point. I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE!!! NO MORE!!! If getting dressed for the real world makes me tired than dammit I need to start getting dressed for the real world everyday. Who knows I just might begin to like myself again!!!
It's going to get better sweetie... I have faith in God and I have faith in you that we will get through this weight barrier we have been battling for most of our lives.
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