So when I get home my husband asks me if I cheated (cause he knows how I used to be-I can't even tell you how good it is to say that-let me say it again, cause he knows how I used to be hee hee) I was able to tell him no, very strongly and then I proceed to tell him I am choosing to change my life and I begin to tell him my experience walking into Circle K and hit me like a brick-I kicked Circle K in its ass honey badger style. As I begin to realize the win I began to get emotional as it is super overwhelming for me and I just simply start crying because as I'm realizing that I beat Circle K I'm also realizing that I didn't give any of the fast food places that I am sure I passed a second thought.
So before I left I promised Amber that I would get weighed in. My husband and I both go to get weighed in only for me to find out that I have gained 10 pounds. This put a very discouraging and disappointing cap to my great day. My minds starts to race as I try to search for all the things I ate and why this is happening to me, I'm thinking the sodium maybe I ate to much sodium, I think the ladies were right I must not be eating enough and then last night my brain starts to think what is different this week from last week? I have received 2 meds for my legs. I look up the meds on google to find out their side effects and OMG!
Gabapentin Capsules
All medicines may cause side effects, but many people have no, or minor, side effects. Check with your doctor if any of these most COMMON side effects persist or become bothersome when using Gabapentin Capsules:
Amitriptyline/ChlordiazepoxideClumsiness; constipation; diarrhea; dizziness; drowsiness; dry mouth; nausea; stomach upset; tiredness; vomiting; weight gain.
All medicines may cause side effects, but many people have no, or minor, side effects. Check with your doctor if any of these most COMMON side effects persist or become bothersome when using Amitriptyline/Chlordiazepoxide:
Heartbreak does not even describe what I felt last night. I completely broke down, my husband even had to come and truly console me. I lost it!! Here I am trying so hard, harder than I have ever tried in my life and weight is sneakin in through the back door. I was devastated last night. Devastated! So I think I went through 2 stages of grief. I went from devastation to pissed off. I can't stop taking the meds because they are actually working but I can kick my system in the ass and push harder than I have pushed the past 2 weeks. More strict and eat more. Watch my sodium and get my fat ass up and start moving.Abnormal skin sensations; bloating; blurred vision; constipation; diarrhea; disturbed concentration; dizziness; drowsiness; dry mouth; headache; loss of appetite; nausea; restlessness; tiredness; upset stomach; vomiting; weakness; weight gain
I CHOOSE TO BE HEALTHY! I DON'T CHOOSE TO BE FATTER TOMORROW! It's just that simple.
Yesterday Intake
Chorizo topped Tilapia
2 baked chicken legs 2 boneless pieces of chicken thigh (I forced the chicken the second chicken let)
120 ounces of water
I'm so sorry to hear this. Perhaps you need to call your doctor and get different meds or maybe they could eliminate one of them and see how that goes. Sometimes I ask my pharmacist what alternative meds there are for something that isn't working for me and then I have suggestions for the doc. I find that docs don't know everything and when it comes to nutrition, my experience indicates cancer docs know little (they say just "eat a balanced diet"). They direct you to the dietitian who spews the same old line. People have to look out for themselves now days. Research your condition on Google Scholar if possible. Knowledge is power. You won part of the battle by overcoming your food addiction, now win the pain war by finding some kind of alternative to the doctor's current prescriptions. Life deals us an unfair and crummy hand sometimes (actually, a great deal of the time). I challenge myself to overcome and prosper! Hang in there.
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