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Saturday, April 30, 2011

1 day before the beginning of my journey ~ Again!!!

Well when we got to Arizona my husband says to me that we should wait to start on our lifestyle change because of lack money.  I had to agree with him so we stayed in survival mode.  There was not an option.  So we are going to give this a shot again!!!!!

God willing everything will be in place for us to do so.  So there were so many variables in this decision.  But let's see what happens!!!

Time to prepare the menu!!!  I will be posting my measurements etc. 

I will say I am excited about posting reviews and expanding my blog to other pages!!  I hope everyone else enjoys it as well.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

1 Day before the beginning of my journey

Ha!  Well I have 1 day until I start this journey the minute I touchdown in Arizona will be the time that carbs will no longer be in my life.  The crazy thing about it is that when I think of all of the times that I have been on Atkins one thing holds true.  When I'm on Atkins I have more energy, the pains go away, and I feel super terrific.  I wish I understood why it is so hard for me to be consistent with it knowing that things hold true.  It is so bad right now that I refuse to tell my husband that this is my plan.  I just want to do it and quit talking about it. 

Yesterday I had hamburger, calzone, fries and I'm thinking to myself the whole time I'm eating this am I truly going to be able to change my life?  I live to eat and as a result I have imposed that on my daughter.  My husband and I went to Walmart last night and as usual I get in a electric cart and we buy a couple of items and I look for the check stand that has candy because that is definitely something that I want especially on my night before my last one.  He taps me on my shoulder and  says (as I'm grabbing the candy)  That right there is why you will never get yourself out of the chair.  All I said to him was you are probably right and paid for my candy.  I don't even want to begin telling him about my journey or my plans because it will turn into something about him or us.  I'm not looking to do that.  I asked him the other day if we were going back on Atkins and he told me he didn't know.  That was all I needed to hear.  I know what I need to do for me.  This is something that just simply has to happen.  With him or without him. 

My Journey is going to be a hard one but it is one I have to take.  I feel now that I am going back to the city I will have more support and availability to get it done. 

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

How many times will I have to take this journey?

This blog simply shows me that I have gone down this journey now about 3 times. Truth be told I have gone down this journey more than 3 times it's only been 3 times that I have blogged about it.  I will say that each time I have gone through it and have blogged about it I truly felt that this was going to be the time that it was going to work.  Basically if I am going to invest the time and the energy to actually blog about my journey than it is important enough to me that I feel that I can actually succeed at the journey.  Blogging definitely for me provides me a sense of therapy.

Well here we go on to a new attempt of healthy.   It is getting,  I'm sure,  not only old for others but definitely old for me to go down this journey once again.  My husband doesn't believe I have what it takes to truly be consistent with this lifestyle let alone be consistent with just simply taking care of myself, well as it stands it truly doesn't matter what he thinks or feels about me at this point.

I have to do this.  I have to be better to me that is all there is to it.  When I look at myself I wonder how did I get here?  I didn't used to be this person that doesn't take care of herself physically in terms of her health or just her normal hygiene and environment.  You couldn't beat me going to the hairdresser or to get me a new dress.  I lost it all somewhere in my process of getting larger.

I do want to live but more important I want to be happy!

So let the new journey begin!  I am moving to a new state and city for so many reasons but mostly my job and making more money.  With this job and doing other things I have been dying to do it is truly going to place me in a situation where I have to take care of me, my appearance, and my environment better.

Let the journey begin!