You know I guess who knows me better than I know myself. There is a reason that I forced myself into a situation where I didn't have a choice but to do the cleanse. If I had money or means right now I would probably cheat. Addiction is what it is but this is journey is truly giving me an opportunity to get in check with myself. I want to live! End of Story!
I want to have a great rest of my life. I live to eat instead of eating to live. My addiction has truly completely taking over my life and I hate it. I'm so glad that I don't have the capability to be out in the world because if I did there would be no way I would still be on this journey.
This is way harder than Atkins ever was. At least with Atkins I could eat food. It's only been two days and I'm so want to give up. But I can't. I just simply can't. I have to be strong not only for myself but my family. I know at this point I'm totally rambling but it is the only thing that is keeping my mind off of the detox. I feel as if I'm in mourning. Mourning of a best friend - food. Food and I have a really bad and unhealthy relationship. I just hope I can beat it this time.
6:00 On a Holiday 2nd day in and truly struggling
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I know how much you are struggling with this but always know that I am going through this with you! You just have to be strong babe... I know you can do this... I know we can do this... I have my weaknesses also sweetie... but like you said this is for our future... a healthy future for our family. We will win this battle!
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